Friday, 1 February 2019

I walk unknowingly
It's pitch black to infinity
My eyes struggle to perceive.

I see a flicker of light
And run towards it,
Everything's so bright.

There's a sense of relief
And all that matches my belief,
But the ray is a disguise
Filled with lies.

I search in vain to flee
As the darkness engulfs me,
I feel the rush and surge of pain
I have been abandoned again.

Diwali

Here comes Diwali
Diyas around the house
Smiles on faces
Sweets in cases.

Rangolis on every doorstep
Decorations at peak
Happiness to the depths
Brightness this week.

Celebrating the festival of lights
With the ones you ignite inside.
Happy Diwali guys.

There's something I want you to know
Am I sure?
I don't think so.

I think you're right
But, this feeling, it's hard to fight.
Mixed emotions, I even feel betrayed
And yet, not even a hint of hatred.

I gave until the overflow.
Little did I know
To you someone else is worth the risk
That I took in a heartbeat.

Mg belief is you'll return,
If your feeling
Has any meaning,
To fulfil the forever you yearn.

See the tough act put up
Heartless emotion on show.
The all time confident smile,
Unwavering expression on the face.

Somethings still manage
To crack those walls
Exposing the slight damage
The silent brawls

Underneath you're just scared
To say what you feel,
To let it all out.

I haven't been totally honest
When you asked:
"Do you miss me like I miss you?"
The truth is I never do.

I never felt that way
Because we miss someone who is away.
You are always with me.

Somethings, can amaze us
But things break
Then there's nothing left to gaze.
We, are just like it.

Once broken, we don't look within.
We sit aside and cry
Rather than giving fixture a try.

Pick up the pieces
And join them again.
Its beauty and virtue increases
As do yours.

When all was lost
And I was a worthless cause
You entered once again
To tend the pain.

Your presence overpowered my senses.
I was drowning nice and slow,
Unwillingly carried by the flow.

I am stuck in this loop.
Where I can't deny you
Or maybe I don't want to.

At first I was caught off guard
Dragged deep down in it
It was amazing, I admit.

Next one was a mistake
Even though a sweet one
Result of too much affection.

I'll make the same mistake again
Becasue I never grow
Despite the consequences and pain.

Republic Day

When did we actually acquire freedom?

When we:
Gained our deserved rights
Were all bound by same rules
Learner to treat each other equally
Were united and not divided by caste/creed
Received our Constitution
Became Republic.

Why not follow rules from this moment?
Coz it's never too late.
Happy Republic Day!!!

Among all this chaos
There's a vague scream
A cry, to hold the attention.

Searching for a North Star it could follow
The Sun it could turn to
A Journal for its fears and secrets
A Presence where its true self is revealed.

Someone to love
And to feel loved.